Live Performance Video - Light In The Cracks

Light in the Cracks Written and Performed by Sandra Kunz

Just when you think that you can't do something.... well.... miracles happen. I had given up on music many years ago. I really didn't believe I was allowed to do what I wanted to do in the deepest part of my heart.

I would go and hear live musicians and often cry. I would cry because what they did touched me so deeply and sometimes they were tears of grief for giving up on myself. I have been a musician for many years. I played the piano, the trumpet, and I sang for all of my life. I sang in chamber choirs, did some wonderful vocal improv (thanks Beth!) and I did do some singer songwriter in my past but it never lasted. I would keep sabotaging myself and developed stage fright which just shut the whole thing down and I gave up over and over again.

My journey back to music happed in February of 2021. We were visiting a friend near Nelson BC and she had a guitar hanging on the wall. For the first time in ages I decided I would pick it up this particular guitar and start to play and sing. I think I played Stand By Me. My partner sat dumbfounded with a look of complete shock as he listened to me play and sing. He had no idea.

So over the past year and 9 months I have picked up the guitar, started taking lessons again and more recently I started to write music again.

I have also been working very deeply on changing my beliefs, my core identity that I was operating from and releasing the stuck emotions that were keeping me in the pattern of unfulfillment. A lot of that was actually grief from when I gave up on myself.

So here I am, 52 and going for it. I don't know what is in store but I am very relieved to be honouring this part of myself!

So if there is something that keeps coming up in your heart to do that you keep saying no to or just putting off, please don't. Please do whatever you need to do to just start. Your life will start to feel like yours. It is an act of self love and your life will be so much more fulfilling.

Here are the lyrics:

Light in the Cracks

They said don’t stick your head out

It’s not right, it’s not safe

Don’t be bold, don’t be beautiful

You’ll be fine if you’re the same

So she stayed in the lines

Barely coming up for air

Everything’s blurry everything is grey

There must be more, but where?

Do do do do do do Do do do do do do

And in the black are the cracks in the surface

Of the fortress in her heart

In the calm is the light is in the darkness

And the darkness is in the light

She let go of the rope one day

Her tug of war was with herself

She let the colours bleed out of the lines

Now she can see something else

No one’s wrong, no one’s to blame

She’s the one that can change the game